What a morning. I really love my kids all the time but mornings like this one remind me exactly how much I love them.
This morning started off good, the alarm at 6:15 wasn't too bad. I went down stairs to make some muffins from a box for a special first day of school breakfast but I realized that I didn't have any eggs. Darn, cold cereal it is. No worries.
I got these cute girls off OK, Dallas drove them for me so I didn't have to wake up Ellie.
Aren't they adorable? And big!! 5th grad for Abbey and 2nd for Miah. They were so excited!
Then it was time to get Ethan ready for his first day of Middle School. What Middle School? Really? I've been preparing myself and him for this day for a while and I thought we were ready, but of course I hadn't thought of everything. He was planning on riding his bike to school with some neighborhood friends so I hugged him, kissed him and hugged him again, and sent him on his way. I was all alone, Dallas had gone to work and Ellie was still asleep, but I was OK. I decided to jump in the shower, but by habit when I do this I lock the front door. About 15 minutes later I was finishing up my shower I start to hear someone calling for me and it wasn't Ellie. I got so nervous and realized that it was Ethan! His bike buddies had left him by accident and misunderstanding and he had been trying to get in the house for the past 5 minutes! He rung the door bell twice and couldn't figure out where I was. Luckily he figured out how to let himself in the garage with the code and figured out why I didn't answer the door. I was sure he was upset, he's an emotional kid so I sense his anxiety. I quickly got dressed and apologized and tried to make it all OK but he was still a little sad. He was trying so hard not to cry but that face just kills me! Anyway, I pulled Ellie out of bed and realized I hadn't got a picture of Ethan yet! So I snapped this:
Isn't he handsome?! I especially love that he's wearing his "I know my Savior lives" bracelet that he got from Primary:).
OK, on with the story. So up to this point I hadn't cried yet. Yet. While driving him to school I thought I should try and find some happy music to turn on to change his mood and his luck. I found "Say Hey, I love you" by Michael Franti on the radio (press play on the playlist at the bottom of this page to listen) and started singing a long and telling Ethan that "I love you, I love you" through the song. So there we were sitting in the parent drop off line when I realized just how much I love him and I just lost it. Oh my baby is going to grow up too fast, first it's middle school, then high school, then college and I'm just so afraid that it's going to keep going by faster and faster just like life does. I told him through my tears that I want him to stay little and I also want him to grow up at the same time, but could he slow it down a little? My kids are such a HUGE source of my joy right now in my life right now and I just don't know what I'd do without them. I will also now stop complaining about having to entertain Ellie all day when the kids are at school. I've been anticipating her having a hard time this week because she's really going to miss having these moments with her sisters:
These girls play so good together and Abbey and Miah are so great to just come up with things like this (a girl made out of Bendaroos on the window) to entertain her. I love that! But I also need to take advantage of this one on one time that I have with her for the next 2 years because before I know it she'll be going to Kindergarten! I just need to get creative like Abbey and Miah, they should give me some pointers:) We'll be fine I know, she's a fun buddy to have and I'm not ready to be alone. Oh the lessons I've learned today, (big sigh).
This morning started off good, the alarm at 6:15 wasn't too bad. I went down stairs to make some muffins from a box for a special first day of school breakfast but I realized that I didn't have any eggs. Darn, cold cereal it is. No worries.
I got these cute girls off OK, Dallas drove them for me so I didn't have to wake up Ellie.
Aren't they adorable? And big!! 5th grad for Abbey and 2nd for Miah. They were so excited!
Then it was time to get Ethan ready for his first day of Middle School. What Middle School? Really? I've been preparing myself and him for this day for a while and I thought we were ready, but of course I hadn't thought of everything. He was planning on riding his bike to school with some neighborhood friends so I hugged him, kissed him and hugged him again, and sent him on his way. I was all alone, Dallas had gone to work and Ellie was still asleep, but I was OK. I decided to jump in the shower, but by habit when I do this I lock the front door. About 15 minutes later I was finishing up my shower I start to hear someone calling for me and it wasn't Ellie. I got so nervous and realized that it was Ethan! His bike buddies had left him by accident and misunderstanding and he had been trying to get in the house for the past 5 minutes! He rung the door bell twice and couldn't figure out where I was. Luckily he figured out how to let himself in the garage with the code and figured out why I didn't answer the door. I was sure he was upset, he's an emotional kid so I sense his anxiety. I quickly got dressed and apologized and tried to make it all OK but he was still a little sad. He was trying so hard not to cry but that face just kills me! Anyway, I pulled Ellie out of bed and realized I hadn't got a picture of Ethan yet! So I snapped this:
Isn't he handsome?! I especially love that he's wearing his "I know my Savior lives" bracelet that he got from Primary:).
OK, on with the story. So up to this point I hadn't cried yet. Yet. While driving him to school I thought I should try and find some happy music to turn on to change his mood and his luck. I found "Say Hey, I love you" by Michael Franti on the radio (press play on the playlist at the bottom of this page to listen) and started singing a long and telling Ethan that "I love you, I love you" through the song. So there we were sitting in the parent drop off line when I realized just how much I love him and I just lost it. Oh my baby is going to grow up too fast, first it's middle school, then high school, then college and I'm just so afraid that it's going to keep going by faster and faster just like life does. I told him through my tears that I want him to stay little and I also want him to grow up at the same time, but could he slow it down a little? My kids are such a HUGE source of my joy right now in my life right now and I just don't know what I'd do without them. I will also now stop complaining about having to entertain Ellie all day when the kids are at school. I've been anticipating her having a hard time this week because she's really going to miss having these moments with her sisters:
These girls play so good together and Abbey and Miah are so great to just come up with things like this (a girl made out of Bendaroos on the window) to entertain her. I love that! But I also need to take advantage of this one on one time that I have with her for the next 2 years because before I know it she'll be going to Kindergarten! I just need to get creative like Abbey and Miah, they should give me some pointers:) We'll be fine I know, she's a fun buddy to have and I'm not ready to be alone. Oh the lessons I've learned today, (big sigh).To Ethan, Abbey, Miah and Ellie:
"It seems that everywhere I go,
the more I see the less I know,
but I know, one thing, that I love you.
I love you, I love you, I love you"
-Michael Franti-
"It seems that everywhere I go,
the more I see the less I know,
but I know, one thing, that I love you.
I love you, I love you, I love you"
-Michael Franti-
6 comments:
Great...now i'm crying! Love you guys. You have an amazing family and AMAZING children. Tell them we love and miss them TOO MUCH!
Oh! Look what I have to look forward too! I love that song... we always sing it at the top of our lungs and point to each other. It's such a perfect song!
You are such a great mom! I'm dreading the day Jordan starts school. :(
I love your family picture, so funny!
Wiping my eyes!! You are such a great Mom ( and Dallas a great Dad)! The time really does go fast. You have great kids and I can't wait to see all the great things that they will do! Love you guys SO much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aww, love you! I'm wiping the tears away too.
You are such a good Mom. I just about cried while I was reading. :)
On the first day of school last week I took Maddie and Lyndon swimming in the morning and there was no one there because everyone was at school. So it got me thinking that this will be my very last time without any kids in school. It made me sad to think how fast they really do grow up.
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